Life knows how to grove me..

I dont know about you but life is wonderful! everything happens for a reason and i keep realizing how much i have grown, and not grown. life is like putting my iPod on shuffle...you can be skipping along having a gay old time and all of a sudden this depressing song comes on that you are just not feeling but once its done out of the blue Zeppelin rocks your socks off and tells you to just ramble on! wonderful! do you know what im talking about? if no thats ok.
Can i just say that once something is done and there is nothing you can do about it, learn the lesson and LET IT GO, you will gain nothing if you just sit and think about how bad you wish things were different, NOTHING! just go about your business and proceed along your wonderful little journey! take note this is wonderful advice..
ps. sorry for the lack of punctuation and capitalizations

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Note to self: People DO read your blog!!!

Note to everyone: Don't blog at work and especially ABOUT work!

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"The doctor of the future will give no medicine but will interest his patients in the care of the human frame, in diet, and in the cause and prevention of disease." -Thomas Madison

10 THINGS I HATE AND 11 THINGS I LOVE

10 THINGS I HATE
1- RUDE IDIOTS
2- THE PHRASE "SPANKING THE MONKEY"!!!
3- BACK FAT..EEWW
4- BUFFETS
5- PANIC ATTACKS
6- MEAT
7- MATERIALISTIC FOOLS
8- CABLE TV
9- NOT HAVING A “BEST” FRIEND BESIDES CALE
10- BUGS

11 THINGS I LOVE
1- WEEKENDS
2- YOGA & CRUNCHES
3- “QUANTUM WELLNESS”
4- MARC BROUSSARD
5- LOSING WEIGHT
6- EXTRA DARK CHOCOLATE
7- RESTRICTING
8- BAKING FOR FAMILY & FRIENDS
9- KISSING MY BOYS
10- BEING VEGETARIAN
11- DID I MENTION LOSING WEIGHT

Do I look FAT today????

I seriously think about my weight waaaay too much. When I’m not trying to loose weight I constantly think about how grossly F-A-T I am, even though my boyfriend tells me I am just perfect, yah yah yah. And when I am trying to loose weight, like I now am, I think about the number on the scale and analyze all the food I am (or not) consuming. I love myself and my life but whenever I get in a funk, especially when there isn’t a particular reason, I totally focus on dropping pounds and getting even healthier. Cause I know it will fill that void of whatever is missing and making me down. Do I have a problem, no I don’t think so, not at all. I probably did when I used to revolve my whole life around my body and would get “rid of” anything I consumed, back in the day. But now I focus more on health and a more natural based diet. So that’s ok. I guess I just need to make sure I find a balance and don’t go over bored. I have always had such an “all or nothing” attitude but like I said now it isn’t so much about calorie counting but what kind of food I am putting in my body.
I love being vegetarian, one of the MANY reasons is probably because I get to restrict food without people thinking I want to loose weight. I always hated people criticizing me when they saw me watching what I ate and feeling the need to share their opinion on weather I needed to or not. Keep it to yourself fatty! I am not under weight and haven’t been since I had Keller so that hasn’t been an issue. So why am I writing about this? I just need to reassure myself I am not going crazy and putting my thoughts into words helps me process these obsessive thoughts of mine. Wonder who even reads my blog???

Kelly is vegatarian....and now sober.

I haven’t been going out much, like at all, so when I finally did Saturday for my friend’s joint birthday party I was out of control. How ridiculous, I mean really, I don’t drink for almost 2 months and then go out and start taking shots like I can drink like the rest of ‘em! UGH! 
I was so sick the next day I had to miss my good friends son’s 1st birthday party!!! I was so upset and disappointed in myself. I truly was enjoying these past few months of sobriety! I don’t plan on ever getting that drunk again! EVER! And I mean it, don’t laugh! My body was so taken back by all the alcohol it was fed, none of the dancing and socializing was even worth it!  First meat now alcohol…what’s next????

A good morning.

This morning I woke up and was in a really optimistic mood even though I wanted to sleep like 2 more hours! I love days like that, where you feel super blessed (I use that word a lot) for the simple fact your alive and able to go about your day breathing and healthy. God I’m weird. This feeling is probably because I spent Thursday threw Sunday morning in a lot of pain and I'm grateful to be better! Don’t ask me what I had, the doctor didn’t know either even after labs and ultra-sounds. It hurt really BAD under my ribs every time I breathed in, it then moved to my back, it was horrible. Or maybe it’s the effects all ready of my new diet. Yeah I have gone to the other side…vegetarian. No, this is not just a temporary claim, this is a concrete lifestyle change addressing my health and values. Thanks to the book I’m reading (Quantum Wellness) and Peta.org I can’t bare to even look at meat anymore. So anyway summer is transitioning into fall and I personally couldn’t be happier. I’m so excited for jeans, sweatshirts, cool crisp air, and socks! I am sick of the humidity and looking at my fat arms! : )